a story in progress

Been awhile since I last did an update on the happenings of my daily life. Guess I have a pretty dull life isn't it? Anyhow, these are the few highlights for the past week;

The EST Saga
Surprisingly, how a subject which was once dubbed as the Extremely Simple Test (I made that one up) can turn out to be such a hassle? The recent release of the 2007 SPM result was in fact the cause of all these ruckus. You see, for my school only had a handful of students who manged to bagged an A for it. (4 students with A1 and 12 students with A2 to be exact) When our EST teacher announced that last year's benchmark of getting an A1 is 90 and above, the students went berserk about it. The issue of dropping EST became a heated debate.

Everyone started asking whether I will drop it as well. And for the god-knows-what-time I had to repeat the same answer which is; NO! First and foremost, it's because I have already made up my mind when I signed my conformation slip. Secondly, I feel that depriving one's opportunity to try something on the pretext of afraid to fail is a very foolish thing indeed. Third, you may call it sheer insanity or pure guts (I don't really care which one is it) but for all that is worth - I would really like to carry on (more like finishing it) what I started. So, guys I would really appreciate if you let this whole saga be and move on, will ya?

Snapshots on Life
Yes, as of this week, the school's photography club is already taking class pictures, graduation pictures and so on. So it's gonna be kinda busy at school but heck it's extremely funny all the same. (especially with the 'informal' shots)

Will post some of those pictures as soon as I get my hands on them. *grins*

The Debating Fever
Been bitten by the debating bug, just had our first mock yesterday. Have to say it was somewhere between weird, funny, a bit emo and of course meng-wtf-kan. As usual, it was immensely satisfactory preparing for the mock and just trashing it out.

However, also heard some very disturbing news about the several schools which we came across last year. Apparently they had lost in their respective matches not because of any shortcomings but it was the other way around instead. I'm not really sure to say this as a general statement but those adjudicators are definitely a pain the @$$.

I'm seriously hoping that we don't come across these kind of 'ill fortune' again. I know shit happens for a reason, but a one time shitty event is more than enough to leave my taste feeling bitter. (even till now)

*touch wood*

The Roadblock Ahead
Yes, ladies and gentlemen, after two weeks or so, I'm yet to finish my essay for the IMPAC Dublin. Personally, I have lost all hopes in it, but I'm still trying to push what ever ounce of brain juice I have left stored in my hallow little head. This is so depressing.

The Fallen Door
The door literally fell off from my van when we were on our way home today. The stupid thing just slided of it's track when I opened it and it came crashing. We spent almost an hour at the road junction trying to put it back on. After several unsuccessful attempts, the van driver had to drive all the way to the nearest mechanic with us clinging on the door as tightly as we could. It was really a meng-wtf-kan moment of my life. I mean I knew the stupid door has a history of falling of, but I just didn't expect it would pull that stupid stunt today. Argh. Frustrating indeed.

Took this picture while I'm suffering from a writer's block on my essay. Haven seen one for quite some time.

Ahh, the pretty things in life where most people will take for granted. No?

But I'm still suffering a from writer's block! Can't seem to carry on with that distorted version of my Tomorrow's World. Argh.

At this rate, I won't get any decent sleep for tonight as well.

My BM teacher just told us this yesterday - some student who just gotten his or her result is currently on suicide watch. Apparently he or she did not get the result he or she is expected to get. Now the mother has to watch over him or her 24-7. You know, for the most obvious reason of course.

Then it hit me, am I the sort of person to resort to that if I don't get what I wanted? At a first glance, it would be a NO. Heck, no matter how many times I look at it, it will still be a NO. But still, I can't help but fathoming what happen of me after I get my result. Of course I know it a highly hypothetical situation, where anything is possible.

Perhaps in self-denial no doubt then.

(if that's the case, just leave me alone for a month, and I will do just fine after that)

I'm an ambitious person. I want everything I do to be the best of me. I want to succeed in everything I do. Academic and non-academic wise.

So what will happen (to me) if I'm proven wrong?

I don't think I will get pass myself. I can confidently say that I am not your stereotype kiasu people out there (yes I'm aware that these people are out with the numbers to boot). So please don't stereotype me as your typical kiasu who fear of losing out to others so badly till like there's no tomorrow.

I just have expectations on myself, okay?

I just realized a person can actually be looking forward to something but dreading it at the same time. I know at a first glance it sounds more like an oxymoron with little sense in it. But it's actually possible! I suppose I can be often associated with the above syndrome. No doubt some people out there right now might be suffering from the above syndrome as well, (heck,it may even be you reading this right now). I am yet to find the antidote to it yet, so for those who have discover it, do drop by and inoculate me with it, okay?

Meanwhile, spent the entire morning cleaning my house's storeroom. Can't believe we had that much junk stored in that room. I am not your typical neat freak who enjoys cleaning that much nor am I suffering from some obsessive-compulsive disorder - but I have to admit, throwing all those stuff away really sooths the soul. I find this strange self-satisfaction by clearing the entire room of it's trash. Does that freak you out? It did for me - until I was paid RM 9.40 by trading in all those trash with the recycling people. I figured the money factor makes more sense than any of those obsessive-compulsive disorder anyway.

By the way, Mani, I may not have a fukusuke up my selves but what I do have is this picture of a really really huge life size kuma. May it help ward off the effects of those pesky butterflies.

I know you know I know. But I don't want you to know that I know.

Yesterday was really meng-jiwang-kan (yes I hear you Ben). Finally the 5 of us get to spend some time together and do what we love doing - wrecking havoc in a very discrete and intellectual sort of way.Okay, perhaps I was lying about that back then. But I really like the word intellectual and discrete. It gives you a certain sense of justification of one's action. Don't you think so?

Anyway, not going elaborate any further on the outing yesterday other then it went well! Minus the nonsensical movie we watched and the shallowness,rudeness and not to mention the patheticness displayed shamelessly by a certain bunch of people before I head back.

It seems that the only key issue in Malaysians' mind for today is the 12th General Election. Everywhere you go now, you will hear news, scandals, controversial about our politics and about the government in particular.

As you may have already know as of today;

1. Malaysia's ruling coalition has failed to obtain a two-thirds majority in parliament in weekend elections, the Election Commission said in state media Sunday, for the first time since 1969.
2. In Penang the DAP will officially rule in coalition with Keadilan.
3. PAS have claimed victory in Kedah.
4. Opposition has taken Selangor.
5. PAS strengthens it's grip on Kelantan.

The implication from the above facts may very well shape the very future of the nation and it's people for many years to come. (or perhaps for the next 4 years)

Heck, even the Prime Minster's (or more fondly know as Pak Lah) future is seen as bleak.

Personally, I see tomorrow as nothing but a void filled with despondency and tragedies. Or is it just me being a cynic again?

These so called changes which the people of Malaysia are vying from this 12th General Election - are they but a foolish political gimmick elaborately drawn by a bunch of ingenious conspirators whose primary goal is to fulfill his or her own personal goals? I do not know. But one thing for sure, I pray for those who have cast their votes, for better or for worse, you have yourself to thank if anything were to happen from this point onwards.

Since yesterday night, I have been following the latest updates of the election mainly through the electronic media which of no surprise prove to be more efficient than the ones telecast supposedly 'live' from the election ground. As said earlier in my last post, this election is going to be filled with surprises. (ceh, maybe I should start putting some serious thoughts into becoming a seer or even a political anylyst as my future career) Pleasant ones if you are one of those fed up and silenced people who are all hoping for the leaders of our nations to have a 101 on humility and modesty.

But then somethings will just never change.

Malaysia's democracy is sadly restricted to a 5 year once annual affair. What happens in between those time frame?

God knows.

For now, I shall try catch the latest updates on the Election through what ever means I can find.

But one thing for sure, I have nothing to look forward to.

I don't really know why, but I'm feeling very jiwang right now. But regardless of that, I believe I shall use the word jiwang uncompromisingly in the near future. For some weird apparent reason, I kinda like the word jiwang.

Anyway, my lack of updates of late was a combination of numerous reasons. Some which are relevant. Some which are plain impious. Anyhow, been pretty busy of late. Debate practice as of last week, has officially begun whereas I have gotten most of my marks from the Feb monthly test. In fact, I have gotten all of them except for History. Hard to wonder why isn't it? I will give you a hint; R***A. Go figure!

Despite my stupid blunder and carelessness for Additional Math, I managed to get 80%. Turn out teacher gave me some marks for my workings after all. But my Physics and Bahasa Malaysia (or more fondly known as Bahasa Melayu) are plain depressing. The latter, I gotten a measly 66%. My worst subject by any rate. Unless you add in History (which we all know stands an equally good chance in breaking that record)

On an unrelated note, tomorrow would be a really, really, really exciting day. And no I am not talking about Malaysia's 12th General Election going on tomorrow. Much have be said, brag, proclaimed and talked about. (though none of those are really substantial or the irrefutable facts nor statistics) Regardless, I shall predict (going all Nostradamus like) that tomorrow's outcome will have much surprises in it. Pleasant surprise or vice-versa, you may ask? Well, that depends which side you on.

Personally, I would support which ever party that allows students to hold debate in the august House of Parliament. At least, we have more civilized and of national importance motions to debate about. Don't you think so?

Well back to my point about tomorrow, I am really, really looking forward to it!

Tomorrow's theme?

Be Spontaneous!

I am so jiwang-ing right now.