Saturday, December 26, 2009

Faint Echos

The picture on the left was taken at 2004. It was my primary school's price giving ceremony. In it, we are the alumni of SK Ibrahim; the graduating batch of 2003. The women in red, was our 6 Maju class teacher, Pn. Khew Kim Sooi. Amongst the many familiar faces in the picture, I am starting to forget. I can no longer recall some of the names of my ex-classmates. My primary schooling years which were mostly spent with these dear people are now but a faint echo from a distance. My hippocampus has betrayed me. All I have left to fall back to, is a measly collection of disparate photographs.

If this could happen to my primary schooling years, will it happen to other parts of my life too? My secondary years? My collegehood? Will they all inevitably turn into faint echos - barely audible to the living soul?

At current time, I may have blogs, Facebook, digital photographs, journal etc. to keep track of the years I have undergone. Yet I can't seem to shake off the feeling I have lost a small part of myself along with the passing of time. Though the gains may be more obvious, the loss isn't something negligible either.

Which is why, I don't think I will ever be ready for the new year. I was never quite ready in the past to usher the new year with all the gains and loss that it brought with it. But it came anyway.

So will 2010.

PS- Didn't I told you I smile like a retard? And that the camera hates me? Now you believe me? =P

Friday, December 25, 2009

Christmas with a Heartbeat

Christmas with a Heartbeat is the theme of Grace Community Center for this year's Christmas. However, for one unsuspecting victim of the pre-Christmas/Christmas Eve fever, his heart could not beat any faster (or slower) yesterday.

I be the first to admit; I have never been to so many places in a night before. But yesterday was truly a breaker.

I couldn't have ask for more.


Merry Christmas to all and many cheers to the joy of living!

Saturday, December 12, 2009

Let's Start From Here

Let’s start from here,
Lose the past

Change our minds,
We don't need a finish line

Let’s take this chance
Don’t think too deep
Of all those promises we couldn't seem to keep
I don’t care where we go
Let’s start from here

Joanna Wong's Let's Start from Here

Time seems to flies. Tomorrow is the last day of my semester break. On Monday, it will be the start of my A2 semester. It was a short but well lived holiday. So I have no complaints about it. Of the upcoming new semester that awaits me, I'd say I'm half excited, half jittery bout it. This will be the gateway. The transition point that I have been waiting for.

So let's start from here.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Penang National Park

“Experience, travel - these are as education in themselves” - Euripide

Last Monday, was my trip to Penang National Park along side with Grace, Tze Xin, Stef and Yu Hyuen. (Yikes! I was the only guy amidst four spunky gals!) The entire trip itself was truly remarkable and educational at the same time. After what seemed like weeks of anticipation and rescheduling, the trip to Malaysia's smallest national park finally materialized! Wohooo! That itself seem to be an achievement already.



So our trip began as early as 7.30 in the morning whereby we took the bus from SP to Butterworth's jetty. From there we took the ferry to Penang Island. We reached the national park at approx. 10 in the morning. In which regrettably, we were ripped off by the bus driver who took us from the jetty to the national park located at Telok Bahang. He charged us double the amount that it should be and tried to scam his way through by some sketchy explanation on the the fees. Who was he trying to fool? None of us bought his explanation. But we let it slipped past us anyway. Didn't wanted to make a big fuss out of it then.



Once at the park, we were so awe stuck with the scenery and natural beauty that greeted us. Everything was left to nature's best. The park is well kept indeed. We took the trail from Sungai Tukun across the canopy walk all the way to Pantai Kerachut through a boat ride for our little picnic. Over there we managed to pay a visit to the turtle sanctuary whereby we get to see three baby turtles that were just hatched the day before we got got there. After a much needed rest and a game of SNAP, our next itinerary was some serious, ass kicking jungle tracking+hiking. Argh. Damn tiring lah. With each of us lugging our bags while b
raving through the obstacle course that Mother Nature decided to throw at us in various forms, ie, the steep hills, fallen trees/branches, muddy banks. It was an unmistakable sign that I need to work back my stamina. *shrugs* However, when we finally made it back to Sungai Tukun from Pantai Kerachut, we realized we didn't have the time to make it to Monkey Beach and subsequently we missed the chance to visit Mukah Head's Light House. Dang! (Another time I suppose?)



Besides the greenery of the park another thing bout the outing that struck a chord with me was how incredibly nice the tourists were. Our first encounter was with a group of friends working in the same company in Dubai. One of them turned out to be an alumni of Secondary Ibrahim and Primary Ibrahim who had kindly offered us a free boat rid
e with him and his friends! (hence our boat ride to Pantai Kerachut) We also met an extremely friendly couple from Holland whom we all salute. They have some serious spunk to cycle thousands of miles across Europe, go travelling to most places ala backpacking style and not to mention being that loving at such an age. So inspiring but such things especially the latter is almost unheard of over here! *sad* And to top it all, we came across a filming crew in the middle of the jungle! Although, none of really know them at first, but we later came to know the main actor is from the Blogger Boy series. Lol!

We left the park around 5 in the evening. We then went to Mac Calister road for its hawker food. Even the bus ride out of the park, I got the feeling that the bus driver ripped us off by his dubious claim on the fees. Wtf. Luckily, instead of taking the bus back all the way back to SP, we were fortunate enuff to hitch hike Stef's car back albeit the squeezing and lack of leg room. *winks*

All in all, the outing is what I'd call a success. No major hiccups, it was a little adventurous as well as refreshing plus it proved to be a major bonding session. The same question is already running in everyone's head; where to head to next?


PS- All pictures from the above are taken and edited by Tze Xin. I can't seem to hook up my hp to ny pc. Therefore, I can't upload any of my pics.

Sunday, December 6, 2009

If Only I Could, I Would

For the past few days I have been toying with the idea that it be absolutely terrific if I am able to go back to the past. I want to go back to the time before I decided on anything. Fresh from NS with my SPM result in hand.

I know this time I will be equipped with something more than foresight. I will have clarity and resolve.

PS- Something I found while searching for relics of the past. *smiles*


Saturday, December 5, 2009

I'm Desperate

At the moment, my self-esteem is ebbing at the lowest depth possible. I hate the feeling of being so inadequate. I keep on having the notion that whenever I am put on on the brass scale, I hardly measure to an ounce of others. Going through all those form and prerequisites, I am being forcefully reminded of the similar forms that I have filled up less than 9 months ago. Even then, I remember the distinctive feel of being so inadequate. I tried to convince myself, somehow, someway there was a tad of chance that awaits me beyond all of those forms. I actually believed myself to be in the same playing field as everyone else back then.

But heck who was I kidding? The outcome definitely proved to be otherwise.

In spite of that and everything that came before, right now, at this point of my life, I have never been so sure of what I want. Yes. I was lost before. Aimless for the past one year.

I am desperate this time. I have never wanted something so badly in the past. So please, let this come true for once. This is all I am asking for.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Crossing the River



do you know why one can never cross the same river twice?



yeah, 'cause it's always moving, no?


the water is always changing.always flowing.


damn
i do feel old, just thinking 'bout it!