If someone were to ask you a question, obligation over responsibility. Which one will be of greater importance? But before you attempt to answer that, allow me to first define those two key words. For it is essential for you to first understand what I am trying to say.
'obligation' means 'an act or course of action that is demanded of one, as by position, custom, law, or religion'
'responsibility' means 'a requirement to take some course of action bound by laws,moral and the norms of society'
Now that we have some clarity on that matter. What say you? Obligation or responsibility? I do not know about your choice, but I find that at times (well most of the time actually) I am forced to take both head on. Confused? You should be. For I am too in a state of confusion and denial. Why do we even have to choose from either one of them in the first place? I am often indecisive. Whenever I am forced to determine the next course of action in my life, I am always forced to consider all the other factors before hand. The inconvenience factor, the time factor, the money factor, other people's feeling and so on. And NO I am not being too coward to take any move nor am I 'thinking too much' (even though I have a history on doing so). Its just that I could never live with my own decisions if I just acted on my impulse. And the best part (or the worst part in this case) would be that, I will have Guilt and Regret to haunt me for the rest of my life.
A typical pointless scenario of it would be...
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Bro : You wana follow me to Penang?
Me : Sure, why not? It would be fun right? Oh, wait.... We haven't ask mum on this matter yet.
Bro : Never mind, we can ask her now.
Me : Mum, can I go to Penang?
Mum : (giving you that very worried look) I am just not sure dear. It would be very inconvenient. There would be no one to pick you up as your Dad is so busy with his work right now. Not to mention your brother have to attend his classes in college. I need you to follow me to Alor Star to see your grandparents too.
Bro : I don't mind taking care of Kar-Men. There is food in the apartment, and I can drive him around the island if he want and of course to the ferry when its time to go back to SP. Beside he can just watch a bunch of DVD while I am in college. I am sure that will keep him occupied then. (rather true actually, as my Bro has an entire DVD collection over there)
Mum : Why are you encouraging your brother to go there so much?!
Bro : Why are you dis-couraging him from going there so much?!
After much arguing and minor dispute among the two of them....
Mum : Fine then its up to you to decide, Kar-Men!
Me : Erm... Well, seeing all these inconvenience, I might as well go some other day then.
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Its only today, ( a day after my bro left for Penang alone) my mum receive a phone call from my grandmother. Another long conversation is striked up once again. This time more fiery then before. ( but I will just skip that, okay? ) Grandpa is up to his usual health problems again. It seems that its even more urgent then before for me to rush down to Alor Star tomorrow with my mother.
So in case you are wondering why does all this have to do with obligation or responsibility mentioned earlier. I am not gonna even attempt to try answer that. As I am too 'wrecked' to do so right now. I might just be like every other hormone-filled teenager venting out his frustration and rambling which doesn't seem to make much sense any way. But to top it all, I am having a really pathetic flu which has been bugging me for days. (which might contribute to the early demise of my brain and what-so-ever intellect that is left with it or even to the current rambling which I have been harping on). Either way, I just know that I am feeling so sicked right now. From the inside, out.
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