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Someday in the near future, I am going to kick back and just read all day. Books after books with a flask of warm honey lemon to sip in now and then.
Absolutely gorgeous I say.
Friday, October 29, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
I Won't Have it Any Other Way
In retrospect, many things have come and gone by since my last post. Within the last two weeks I have experienced a gamut of emotions and thoughts which often ran from one end of the positive spectrum to the other. At my present stage I find myself feeling pretty contented and strangely at peace. Despite the workload bordering closely between the line of insanity and sadomasochism, I don't think I will have it any other way. One of the main driving force for me to come down here is in fact to experience all of these. So now that I am currently living it, why not go through it all?
Carpe diem I say.
Friday, October 8, 2010
Day 3
Dear Mum & Dad,
Words of gratitude can't possibly be enough to repay what both of you have given to me all these years. Besides, providing me with an education, comfort and financial security, both of you have shaped me into what I am today. For the latter reason alone, I have so much to be thankful for. I do wish I am more forthright with my feelings with both of you at times. Especially you Dad.
That way I can tell you how much you have impacted me towards all these years. You who have taught me so many things from my elementary arithmetic to riding a bicycle to learning how to handle my finance. The things you have taught me are in fact a testament to the progression of our relationship. I draw upon your silent presence and unyielding stand. From a fatherly figure whom I look up to for being all-knowing to someone whom I came to understand a little better of his life struggle and expectations. I have never once question your paternal authority but it wasn't only till recently that I actually did it without realizing it. It was when you insisted on accompanying me all the way to Singapore for my enrollment. I did not want you to take leave for several days to walk haphazardly in the unknown streets of the island searching for the hostel, hospital and whatnots with me. But it never occur to me back then, that you are actually insisting to come along because you want to. Not because you had to. It was only after when you left, I am reminded of the fact that I am blessed with a dad. That particular thought alone is comforting enough for me even when I am going through the toughest of time.
As for you Mum, I think I have always been perceived as a Mama's boy for most part of my life. I am not afraid to admit that I am one. You have always been the personification of a strong principle driven women in my life. No where else have I encounter a women that I have that much respect and love for. You have single handedly shown and taught me a large chunk of my emotional development over the years. Through you, I have seen tenderness in tenacity, strength in times of hardship and most importantly the means of being a living individual. You brought the realism of life to the simplest of manner to me. All things under the sun such as to love, to cry, to be angry, to mourn, to pray and so on were handed by you to me. I am very much appreciative of all the things and sacrifice you have taken for me and Sher-Men as well. From opting for an optional retirement for both our sake to being pragmatic and frugal for both of our future goes without saying the best gift you can ever provide us. I promise to make it up to you with the time and effort I have. The years and opportunities you lost for our sake will be me amended twice fold if not tripled and quadrupled. I know you are taking huge leaps in recent years. For that I promise to be there with you.
On a final note, to both of you, I have always counted my blessings. Especially for the love I have been showered. I also know that you two have given a lot to me especially over the recent years. Looking beyond the financial means that you two are currently providing me for my tertiary education which still comes of as a substantial amount, you two have given me the autonomy to decide what I want from my life and to a greater extension my own self. Never have you two prompted me to take up something I did not like. Even when I was facing a crisis as to not knowing what I want from myself, you two stood by me and gave me the time to decide for myself. For that and all of the above as well as the countless moments that you two have given me I thank you both with the deepest of my heart.
With the greatest love,
Your Son
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Day 9
To My Dearest,
I have been waiting for you for as long I can remember. You often come into my mind as a faceless individual. Although I am unable to picture your features, your vivid warmth and comforting presence has always been synonymous to you in my reveries. I recall with the utmost fondness how I used to be awaken from my reveries of you with a silly grin on my face now and then.
I know you are somewhere out there. Waiting. Perhaps wondering as clueless as I am. I know not if you will think of me as how I think of you. But do know that, when I get to meet you, I hope to be able to make an impression on you.
I must confess to a certain extent I am in love with the idea of falling in love. To be attached and love with all my soul. There will be difficulties, downs and whatnots in our relationship, but really isn't this a key take away of every relationship? Of course, there will be the awfully sweet and cheesy moments as well. Nonewithstanding, I promise to cherish you and keep in mind what matters the most.
Essentially, what truly matters is the journey and memories made, no? The destination is very much an added bonus to me.
So to us, I look forward to the day where you will enter into my life.
With love,
Yours
Saturday, September 25, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Of Current Updates
Okay there is a need to blog at least one post on my current updates at here. It's now the sixth week of my academic calendar and I just realized there has been scant posts about what I am currently up to. My previous posts have been somewhat vague on it.
Come to think about it, haven't I always been this vague with my postings? Oh well, I shall be unreserved and straightforward now and then when I feel like it. Wtf, right?
Anyway, back to what I am currently up to. For those who don't know, I am currently a freshmen at SMU's School of Business, Singapore. I am taking up to five modules this semester. In total they only make up to 4 units worth of Credit Units. I need up to 36 units in this 4 years time to graduate with a Bachelor in Business Management. If I am planing to take up a double major or a double degree (both possibilities which seem rather distant and far off right now) naturally, I will need to take up more credit units.
Although I am currently undergoing my sixth academic week, (we only have up to 15 weeks per semester) I only have a vague idea of what is going on.. I mean I get the working culture here, with the late nights, multi tasking, juggling of CCA's (clubs and societies that is) with group meetings, datelines, assignments, presentations and whatnots, academic wise I can only tell people so far as to what my subjects are.
Content wise, I am still trying to figure them out. I mean I have Financial Accounting. That is something solid. I am taking up other mods like Technology and World Change, Creative Thinking, Analytical Skills and Business, Government and Societies as well. In which so far, they have been rather vague? I don't know. I get the usefulness and the values they are trying to impart, but I am still wishing for something more tangible? Lol. I don't get myself at times.
Compared to some of my fellow freshmen, they are literally slogging with some of the others mods. I am relatively "free" when I am put on the same pedestal as them. I keep telling myself and others that I will suffer in epic karma-tic proportions for my subsequent semesters.
Enough bout academic stuff, I shall talk about the livelihood in here. As expected, the city state has been so far a pleasant experience. Streets are safe, transportation are systematic and so on. I really don't have to reiterate what people already know bout Singapore right? On the other hand, stuffs that some might find it interesting to note are that, the staple food in here has to be chicken rice. I find it everywhere. At food courts and basically every corner of the street there is bound to be chicken rice. Even at Little India. Which I find that to be rather ironic. The price of stuff here isn't that bad as well, if I don't keep mentally converting every price tag that I see back to Ringgit Malaysia. Wtf. Such a bad habit. Cause then I will be like, asking myself how much can I get that plate of chicken rice back home? How much does that milo and cookies cost in RM? Invariably, I will arrive at the painful conclusion that stuff at home is cheaper and that I need to save up more at here. Wtf. I hate the meager spending power.
Besides that, another thing to note about the social setting at here is that at my uni, there are quite a number of international students. I have so far come across people from various nations. No kidding when they say, at SMU, one get to find every single South East Asia countries to be represented. In a way I get to learn a lot more from them as well as clearing my bigotry. Make no mistake, I am that daft at times.
Awesome people asides, the side activities are very rampant as well. I recall donating blood at the school's blood donation drive for the first time in my life when I was only at Singapore roughly about the second or third week. There so many opportunities to nitpick from. Conferences, info talks, luncheons, high teas (free food!), and many more. Really, time management is a serious issue that I need to re-examine in my life. I need to be more efficient and less forgetful to manage my time. I need a better diary planner. Goddamnit. (why are the ones here so expensive ah?)
All in all, my time spent so far at here really prove my expectations. And to be wholly honest, certain areas were way exceeding my preconceived notions. In a good sense that is. Hence, I really look forward to my next three and a three quarter years of education at SMU. How could I ever think that four years for a degree in Business Management can be a tad too much in the past? How gullible.
I will stop myself at here for tonight. I do believe I have been outright forward with my thoughts and experience so far in this post. Something that I need to do more in my future postings. I know.
Friday, September 17, 2010
Day 7
Dear Y,
Initially, our interactions can be liken to a love/hate thing. I recall with the utmost fondness how you wrote for one of my Birthday greeting that "at times I like you for everything, at times I hate you for everything". I am not the sort to hold grudges, but I am still able to recall that till today because it perfectly sums up my thoughts on you at that moment as well.
Fast forward to a year or two later, I now find myself in an unforeseen circumstance. In almost every social and academic events, you were there. It took me an incredibly long period of time to take notice of, but something between us have changed. It has changed for the better. I would say we have grown so comfortable in each other's presence and attitude that at times, no exchange of words were necessary. No formalities nor pleasantries were needed as well. Because we can be that candid with each other.
Hence, it is through this letter I pledge to maintain our candidness no matter where we may be or how old we may turn out next time. I wish you all the best in your undertakings and do spare some thoughts on me as how I would spare some on you especially on those bitter sweet days of reminiscing the joys of past.
Affectionately,
Yours
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