a story in progress

nothing much to blog about actually for today..juz dat i some how felt responsible to keep this going on..haha..well..i gotta admit..this blog has actually grown on me..guess its becoming a part of my life already.. supposely,i am not the only feeling this way rite?but supposely also as each day pass by..there is suppose to be a new story in our life..some sort like a book..with each passing day..the number of page also increases steadily..another day..another story..

anway..today held at my school was the "mssd" (not really sure wats the full title of it,but in other words..it mean distric level sport days*)its supposely to be an honour for the school to be able to host this prestigious event,i think.. XD so as expected..the school is kinda busy and crowded with ppl..

besides that..i don't suppose there isn't anything else happen today..the usual stuff of coz..more homeworks..less time for ourself..the usual antics coming from both friends and teachers..the never-ending cycle of life..not to mention the march exam is around the coner..next week to be exact..haven't done any of my revision yet..which seems to be very late this year..haiz..god know where i spend all my times on..oh well..some of it is definetly in this blog of coz!trust me..no regret there.. =)

and on an irrelevant subject..i juz recently added another jellyfish pod in this blog..why bother doing so? when i already have one?its not coz i am greedy or anything for dat matter..but somehow i felt cheated by the cyberpetstation website though..my 1st jellyfish can't seem to move on anymore..its stuck at dat stage for the rest of its lifespan..partly i am should be blame too..for not reading the fineprint properly..haha XD
hopefully this new one will suffice.. d^-^b

one last note before i wrap this up..i juz found a rather intresting quiz on the website..nth special or new actually..juz something i wish to share with everyone out ther..its suppose to be a personality quiz based on the final fantasy series..so do hope u guys get ur fav characther and also the 1 which u see fit u best of coz!

http://www.ff-fan.com/chartest/

as for me...i got...







to be honest i am not 100% convinced by the accuracy of this quiz..but oh well,..juz for the fun of it and also to pass time of coz! =P

"I’m Gonna SCREAM+" by Tommy heavenly6


Ooh…
My Sweet Candy pop shining in my hand
“Where are you hiding?”yeah…
耳を澄まして…
that tells me where Ghost is

I wish the stars 幾度も
願いは地上に堕ちた
心が潰れる
だけど“生きる”しかないの

溶けてく
甘いアイスクリームの月
金色のしずく
Deadly…Darling
Let me show you that“I need U”
Every time I…
臆病に瞳を閉じていたけど
星に願いたい　もいちど
蒼白く伸びた
その影を突き刺すナイフ
悲しみの罠から救いたい
I have been waiting for Scary night
Let’s play my Game

悪夢(ゆめ)を見てるの
夜風に揺られながら
こぼした涙が雲を抜けて

青ざめた街に消えてゆく
雨となって
想いの欠片に気づいて
誰か受け止めて

散らばる
飴色に輝くジェリービーンズ
割れた砂時計
Deadly…Darling
Let me take you there yeah baby
闇に揺らめくバニラの月に
焦げ付く
熱いキャラメルの香りが
胸を締め付ける

悲しみを集めた馬車で
君の心を迎えにきたの
I have been waiting for Scary night
I’m Gonna SCREAM+

Ooh yeah…I’m Gonna SCREAM+
I have been waiting for your smile
So Let’s play my Game

I’m Gonna SCREAM+
Let me show you that“I need U”
“I wanna be…”永い闇を抜け
輝く空を飛べるなら
怖いけど後戻りはしない

I’m Gonna SCREAM+
Let me take you there yeah baby
“I wanna be…free”願いを懸けて
その影を突き刺すナイフ
悲しみの罠から救いたい

I’m Gonna SCREAM+ …
Gonna SCREAM+
I Wanna be…Wanna be…

today was SMK Ibrahim 61st Sports Day..
a grey day indeed it was..even the skies seem to agree with me..

today heard,saw and did many things which are pointless..
heard how selfish and 'fake' some humans can be..
heard several 'stuff' which makes me more determines go even futher than before..
saw how unforgiving and cruel fate can sometimes be to a human being..
did many un-productive things at skool..

but then again..i suppose ther is nothing new in this kind of stuff,rite?
guess..juz have to keep going on and trying..

this situation strangely link the skies above with life below it..
though the skies sometimes can be very grey and it may seems that there will be a heavy downpour..
but after all the storm and rain is gone..the horizon will once again be bright and sunny..
juz like today...after it had rained finish..the sky turned into a field of sunshine dat can warmth even the coldest winter there is...a brand new horizon..

so i guess we should always have hope and the warmth of the sun in watever we are doing..
only then we will keep on moving and trying!!
well at least thats wat i have learned so far..
haha..

and on an unrelated note..if not mistaken..sultanah won this year..unbelievable, rite?
well..i suppose that proves something..
even the under-dog sometimes can be on top of the ladder..
its all about the effort,passion and most importantly team-work..

in a blink of an eye,the lunar new year is already here..
this time its the year of the pig or boar as u might call it..
supposelly this year is suppose to be a very auspicious year for everything..
so i suppose we gotta wait n see whether its really true a not...

but either way despite the lack of hype and mood for this year chinese new year for me..
but..i guess it still turn out alrite..
well after all..its juz a time of the year where everyone (or almost everyone) gather to have a 'reunion dinner'..and later after that recieve 'ang pau' from the older generations (whom are married)..

nothing much to do honestly..both the adults and my cousins will gather and play some cards togther.. where as the ladies will start their gossiping or chating as u might call it (up2u ur own imagination)...while leaves the sosical outcast like me alone in the twlight..cann't really complain u know...at least i got the tv loaded with a bunch of cny special progammes..

the consolation is dat i manage to have a trip to penang today with my whole family..but the weird thing is dat as soon as we reached there..its like all of us have our own programmes..my bro went n see his gf which aft dat they all and their friends went for a movie..while my dad went and visit his long-time friend at over there...as for my mum..she went both shopping and window shopping at gurney..finally leaving this social outcast to wonder around on my own..i suppose dats not too shabby..used to it already...besides there are many thing u can do actually alone..much more freedom..

any way..i think dat pratically sums up my cny...no more no less..but never the less..
wishing all those out there who are also celebrating this ocassion a hApPY ChiNeSE neW yEAr!!

does this day bears any significances to u?
is it a day where we cherish our loved ones?
or is it a day we renew our vows?
or to take both a daring and important decision in ur life to start a new relationship?
or even to end an relationship...

so wat does valentine's day tell you?
each may have their own opinion and definition of this day..
as for me..today is not only a day to renew our love towords our soulmates or even to prove how much we love a person on this day..but its much more than dat..


though we may not have a partner beside us to go through this evenful day together..
it doesn't mean we can celebrate today..
in life we don't actually need a reason or explanation to justify or actions or even our decisions..

therefore..we can actually pass this day we much ease and pleasure..
for we have ONE of our life most valuable treasure..

we have friends to go through all of this together..
though good and true friends may be hard to find..
but we muz never let go of them once we found them..


for if a lover is like the moon..

then friends are like the stars..

even though without the moon..

the nite sky can still be as beautiful as before..



so in this memorable day..
i would like to take this opportunity to thank all those around me..
as u all indeed brought the light into my life..
and i would also like to wish all of u a very hApPY VAlEnTine'S dAY!!




-the above pic is actually a ™ of a friend of mines..so credit muz go to her..Charlotte-

hmm..nowadays ppl..
do u guys still believe in something call 'balasan'?
sadlly now i do..
my balasan for kept on telling someone to eat med..at the end..i have to eat them myself!
oh, well..its a well know fact after all..dat nobody in this world enjoy eating med..
including myself! XD
but still i gotta take them..or else i cannt go to skool tmrw...part of my mum's policy..haiz..either i get better or stay at home to rest..
since tmrw by hook or crook also i have to go to skool...i am forced to take those med..
why is tmrw so important?
actually nth much happening tmrw..juz dat tmrw everyone in my class agreed to paint our beloved class aft school..been planing these for ages de liao..so hope everything go smoothly tmrw..

but also recently..someone approached me n ask me..
"why on earth are u all doing all these?!its not u like u ppl will get anything!..sa more most of the class also never help also.."

at dat time i didnt say muc also..i juz say it was for the class..n dat..
'if i could cast away my pride..our work would BE MUCH LESSER..but the thing is i COULDN'T.."

well at dat time..to be honest..i am not really sure i meant every word i said..
but now i see the answer clear in my heart..
the reasons i did all these its not coz i care so much bout the material stuff or even for the sake of some fame..
but instead to my eyes...all these dat i am doing is mmg my job to do so pun!
all these are actually my responsibilities and commitment in my life!

to others..their definition of commitment is juz doing wat they are told..nth more..
if the whole world defines the world commitment like dat..
then sadlly we will be doomed..

coz we will get the less out of everything...
dat is wat i have learned so far..
coz everything we do is actually not for the sake of ourself..but rather for others..
u might disagree with me..but if u search deep enough u will get the answers..

its juz like being a teacher for a instance..there is nth fun teaching a bunch of teenagers..its their passion dat kept them going...and there plenty of example out there in the world sa more..
we juz gotta care more..listen more..and most importantly give more to others..

generations are used to be descibed as a brief period of time that are connected with pop cultures throughout the world from music, fads, inventions, and wars specific to each period of time..
each generation is categorized by the general birth years of the people within the generation...

with much pleasure yet at the same time stain with the feeling of discomfort that i admit my friends and i are actually part of the MTV generation A.K.A the World Wide Web/Internet generation...
>in this particular generation teens now a day tend to be more...techno-savy of coz...
>not to mention competing with each other with every possible stuff u could imagine..frm academics to fashion..u name u have it...

i supoose we should be gratefull that we are part of the MTV generation...or else we wouldnt have so much to enjoy...unlike our fore-father who are from the nexus generation A.K.A the X generation...
>yet..wat is it dat set us apart frm them?
>is it coz we are more sophisticated in terms of techno?

i really doubt so...

wat sets us apart frm our them would be..our attidude...

and regretfully..our attidude aren't wat u called as perfect as nth is perfect in this world any way...but still..at times..it really tick me off by juz thinking of some of my peer's attidude...

i belive the word would be "kpc"...i am indirectlly refering to some of my classmates whom sadlly are female..its not dat i am a sexist or something like dat...but i dun find the idea of gossiping with others about the current status of another person is entertaining lo...in fact..at times..i am really agitated by it...especially today..i had finally lost my temper..i am so pissed off dat i actually fired back at the others back.. including the teacher..i dont find the idea of an adult gossiping together with her students as a mature move..rather pathetic instead... XD

but oh well...i totally blew it today any way...loosing my cool over a matter like this...
but at least i felt its worthwhile lo..

however by juz saying dat i am sorry for ur words will never make up for it...
at least dats how i think..

coz this isn't the 1st time de liao u people said i am sorry aft dat...
and kept on bringing the same thing over n over again...

so..there u go..another characteristics of the MTV generation which is something to mourn about.. =.="