a story in progress

really felt lazy for this past weeks...so lazy to the extent of couldn't be bothering to update this blog..even though i have so much to write and express about..and now..come to think of it..i don't really have the spirit to write them down again..although i can blame it on the disturbance caused recently by the earthquake in taiwan..but..oh heck...dat would only mean dat i am trying to give an excuse for my own laziness and lack of determination if i can say so myself..
haha..
any way..guess wat i am trying to say over here is dat..wat past is past de..await not the past but seize the future instead..a phrase which i quoted from a friend of mines..haha.. ( in case u wana sue me for copyright,i already mentioned u de, :P )
so..the year of 2006 is at its end..and here i am..facing the comp screen writing bout something totaly irelevent..juz to pass time?or is it coz i have no life?but either way..juz wana say dat..instead of being at penang..ushering the new year with my bro n his friend with also joo joo at gurney...i am here at sp...haiz..
guess i can't complain much..its life..whether it dissapoints u or please u..u still gotta go through it...
which bring me to this year of my life...as each day passes by..i am self-aware of every single thing dat goes around my life..i always thought bout it as i lay in my bed..trying to make myself to go asleep..its as if..a flash back has occur in my mind..from all those little things to the important decisions i made so far..dats why..partly i can never seems to sleep early no matter how hard i try...guess another name for it would be call insomia..haha..
any way..during those endless nite..i always go through with all those irrelevant things..its then..i suppose..i am self aware of wat i am doing..although its nothing to be proud of..i am at least glad dat i have a sense of self -awreness..
its with dat i am being able to keep track of all those dat had change in my life..frm my friends all the way to myself..knowing dat..made myself feel gultily and happy at times..an outsider might not understand wat i am saying...haha..so i would u spare u the headache..it took me long enough to realised this also..to simplify matters..its 1 of those life principals dat u can only gain or learn by going through life itself...
to be honest..i made many mistakes this year dat really make me feel remorse whenever i think bout it..but i guess its time to leave them behind..its no point thinking bout it further..it won't change anything at all..but still..how many guys or gals actually thought over their life and admit their own faults or mistakes?if there are actully dat much ppl dat can actually do dat..less ppl will get hurt in both physically and emotionally..
am i rite?or am i juz talking crap again?
either way..it matters not to me...i had my fair share of criticism and praises so far through out the year..from being mr lansi,cold hearted,quiet nerdy boy to drunken squid..i heard of all of them de liao..but at least.. going through so much this year i managed to earn more best friends then actually losing them..so i guess dats something to be happy of! ^-^
by the way..despite all these rambaling of a fool..i am yet to write anything new bout myself or anything dat happen to me recently..well..for the intro..i got my pmr examination results de..nth much to be proud of nor to be sad of... or else dat would actually be called as mr lansi de..haha..n also juz went to penang recently with my bro alone nia..haha..partly coz of dat couldnt make it back to joo joo's b day party...so sorry again!but for the 1st time ever also i am being able to party till 4 am in the morning with my bro in penang..haha..1st time being able to actually do dat..haha..the sweet freedom..i juz love gurney!!haha..
any way..1 last thing before i am off..juz wana wish everyone a happy new year n may all the best come to u all...coz u see..its only bout 30 mins left to 2007 while i am writing this..haha..like wat the title say earlier... "an end to something simple and a beginning of everything else"..
let this new year be a beginning of something much more important in ur life and at the same time..be an end to something much simpler...