a story in progress

If our beliefs and actions are defined by our values, what are we when we act upon only to realize that they aren't align to others? Will it be seen as an selfish, bigoted act with ill intent? A most challenging act would be to balance oneself precariously on a thin line of faith trying to fulfill one's values as well as catering to the values of others.

It would be really nice to take a small break once in awhile. Away from all the paradox of juggling and not compromising. The thought of being back home. In my bed. Or catching up on the familiarities, friends and food is a comforting thought indeed.

But then again, at the back of it all, the same precarious act of constant balancing between values will forever more be around. At least for the next one term.

Until that last day of the term, I have to be a fighter. Holding on to my fort.

Dear Association Internationale des Étudiants en Sciences Économiques et Commerciales,

You are an entity of wonder. As much as you are a pandora box to my GPA, you are also undeniably helpful. You brought new perspectives and new friends to my otherwise nondescript freshmen year. And most importantly, immersing in all things about you, I am beginning to perhaps realign my future prospects.

For starters, I am no longer attracted to the notion of a bank job from 9 to 5 dealing with the backdoor workings of a financial institution. Nor am I keen to crunch numbers all day long as an accountant. Although, I do not know exactly what I am keen to work with after my grad years, I suppose it will be completely different from what I imagine it to be as before.

Above and beyond career prospects, I am now looking at building a network of people. Of friends, confidants and long time buddies. With that much of hours spent in it, I am rather confidant that, I can start planning grand schemes to take over the world. In a literal and figurative sense of course.

So for the next one year, two or maybe even three years to come, you will see me around. That much is a promise.

Cheers,
Yours

I am at this point of my life, taking on different roles of leadership and responsibilities. I am no longer accountable to myself solely. I have to look out for others at a micro and macro level. From being accountable for their well being, growth and delivery of results to the long term strategic planning process.

In the past, I have had thought about this before. Imagining myself to be in that position of power. Wondering how it will be like to have others looking to me for direction and instructions. The very idea of being in that position to inspire and influence others actually exhilarated me.

Now that I am finally here - in that position of power, I feel the utmost weight of solemnity. The need to balance one's aspiration with the expectation to deliver. The need to see the far ahead and act upon it.But somewhere amid all these feelings, that spark of exhilaration is still there.

The terms ahead will not be an easy one. But hopefully it will also be one of the best ones that I will go through during my undergraduate days.

Dear Everyone,

I wish I can just pluck the courage and take that leap of faith. But the fact is I am just too contented with status quo.

So do allow me the indulgence. Even if it's a self perpetuating thing.

Thankyouverymuch.

Sincerely,
Yours