Present or past, I have always deny (vehemently) that I'm converting into a Penangite, Surely, I can't be counted as one just because I have been living there for a year or that my IC has a 07 in it? I still see myself as a budak SP. Jakun in nature.
However, over the last one year, due to the alternating between SP and Penang, I find it difficult at times, identifying which is my home. I know to some, the distinction between those two should seem very clear and that there shouldn't even be any confusion in the first place. I wish it was so. But it isn't.
Now that I am on this little island once more, occasionally my thoughts wander off to SP. Of my room and my mum. The only conclusion that I can think of to reconcile the glaring disparity in this bipolar feelings I have is that I now have two homes. One is my hometown while the other is my birthtown which is slowly growing into my second hometown. It may sounds absurd. Heck even, I find it hard at times, trying to put my thoughts into words, but this is the closest I can put in words. But pretty soon, I may need to leave the latter in search for another place to call my home for the next 3 years at least. Let's see then, how am I to reconcile the tri-dilemma then.
But for the records, I will always be a budak SP. Not a Penangite!
Ps- The picture above (Swiped from Dante C Leon) is totally unrelated to today's post, just that I decided to put in there cause it was a pretty cool mask that my bro and I got in the Bon Odori festival. His is the bronze one (as seen in the pic) while I got myself a green one. *winks*
