a story in progress

as i look back upon this day..i suppose it will leave a lasting impression in my memories.. O_O
although i suppose there is nothing special to remember bout a cross country racing event..
but its the journey through out the race dat counts,right?and most importantly is how we accept and perceive the outcome of the event..
and this year cross country racing has indeed gone beyond my expectation... XD so i suppose i should be gratefull..haha...
another thing dat i will definetly remeber about this day is me walking all the way home from school... XD i have to be honest..this would be the 1st time i have walked dat much other than school activites in sp.. =.=' haha..and it turn out not bad actually..bout 40 mins++..subtracting the time we spend at several "pitstop" wen yi and me took...haha..indeed a fun day today was.. (^_^)
hopefully tmrw would be same...

how do one measure the significances of one life?
does one based it upon the mere actions of a single person?
or is life more meaningful if one life is dedicated to him or her friends?

and how do one judge the significances of an event?
is it more important if we are celebrating a birthday?
or what if we all are celebrating one common event?
lets say how bout chinese new year or christmas and so on?

actually these questions are meant for me..though i already know the answers deep within my heart...
but still...somehow..it always managed to puzzled me...
to me..no matter what day or month it is..even years..matter not to me..
this is becoz everyday life goes on..the sun rise from the east..and set at the west..
it never changed and it will never changed...
from now till forever...

and you might wonder..why am i still celebrating them if its so irrelevent than?
well..to me...those dates aren't the reason for us to rejoice or to celebrate..
but rather its an excuse..for us to foster closer ties among ourselves...
having fun occasionally..to release all those stress buried deep within us...
and many more..

but wat if a person is torn between two sides?
which sides will him or her choose?
and wat if several hindrances and ignorance are to occur?
will he or she change his/her standing and opinions for the better cause?

the mind and heart is set...
a bold move will be taken...
for neither will him or her chose..

await for the consequences we will...
the unfolding of events will only justify our actions..

for this..are the sequence of life..
though we will be bother by this as long as the wheel of fate kept on turning...
we can only patiently go thorough it with our conscious and heart clear....

urs truly,
totally fiction K.M.Lim~~

Kimi dake ga ne shitteta boku, kore ga hontou no boku nan da
Hitori ni natte yuke hidokunatta, zutto kawarenai nakimushi
Minna to nara tanoshi sugite, egao ga jikan hayameru yo
Kokoro ni aita tsukima dake wa umaranai kedo

"Mou nakanaide" mienakutemo kimi no koe wa kikoeru kara
Kono omoide-tachi tatoe hitotsu mo
Namida tte ko mo shitakunai

Yoru ni nareba, yume de aeru, dare mo shiranai mou shiawase
Tsudzuki ga mitai kedo ne, mou me o samasanakucha
Asa ga kite mata, boku ga ichinichi, otona ni naru you ni
Narenai koto ni nareru hi datte jikan no mondai
Aa ugokidasu, ochi mo sonna mo
Kono shunkan o ga ikite iru, boku ni shika dekinai koto ga aru

"Mou nakanaide" mienakutemo kimi no koe wa kikoeru kara
Kono omoide-tachi tatoe hitotsu mo
Namida tte ko mo shitakunai

Cry, baby cry...




You're the only person I understand, This is the only real thing I know
You're always alone, hiding, You're always afraid, and emotional.
Everyone goes out of their way to ignore it, What are you going to do to stop this
Your heart just wants to reach those people but they aren't accepting

"I won't do this anymore" I can't see or hear your voice anymore
This thought is strange
Even if you're the only one crying keep going!

It turns to night and you're dreaming, Who doesn't know of this kind of happiness?
You want to see the stars, Do you think you're the only one like this?

It turns into morning, and you still want to be an adult one day
You won't grow up this fast, time is too slowYou're still being petty. This and that
None of it will get you anywhere, you need to find these things out for yourself

"I won't do this anymore" I can't see or hear your voice anymore
This thought is strange
Even if you're the only one crying keep going!

Cry baby cry...

two separate occasions in one single day...

though they are both aren't related in any ways...

but..

it kept on reminding me how utterly useless n helpless i am....

how can i call myself as a guy when i couldn't do anything to share my friend's burden and sorrows?

even when they are dealing with a very tough moment in their life?

nor could i protect a person whom believe in me so much from people hurting her both in words and emotionally...

i could only stand by their side silently and quietly as always...unable to do anything...sometimes it really made me felt that i am completely hopeless...

from than till now..

things have been remaining the same way as it is...

i really don't know what do to do any more..

what else can i do??

hopeless and guilt~~

the simplest pleasure in life would be.....

to do absolute nothing especially with ur friends...

how often in life we actually spend some of our precious time on doing absoultely nothing?the answer is obvious of cos...each of us will keep ourself busy with our own separate but some how intertwining life...

but enough with all the melancholic and depressive metaphors....

life isn't suppose to be a sad,melancholic or even a depressive tale...

life instead its filled with hopes,joys and much anticipated love...

though the path for a hopefully and a joyous life isn't easy to achieve...

but with enough determination and effort...we CAN ACCOMPLISH IT!!!

so never give up on ur own dreams,hopes and most importantly your love...

so susu...can u carry on with something u have already decided in ur heart since 4 years ago?

guess wat i am trying to say is dat...though life isn't easy..i find much comfort in juz laying on a grass field staring at the skies above chating with my friends...its indeed a moment where a person can find much needed solace,peace and comfort after feeling so tired with walking on a path dat is called "life"....

i hope u all are able to gain dat much by juz doing nothing and watching the skies above as much as i did...

already finished the 2nd week of schooling..left bout 40-41 weeks left of schooling...then its a long term break again..although it may seems like a very long period of time...but...in a blink of an eye..it would be gone with or without us realizing dat..well, i suppose dats how life should be..passing us unnoticed..only then would we realized dat time is precious..

well nothing happen much this week...as expected..had a hard time coping up with form 4..after all..almost everything is a new thing..the subjects,the work load,the increasing amount of tuition and some other irrelevant stuffs..but there is 1 thing dat i have learned so far that..is dat some people can juz never changed...no matter how old they are..

of coz i am talking bout their attitude...alrite maybe mine own attitude might not be perfect..but still..looking at all those people..made me realized dat i should be grateful dat i am not like 1 of them..sometimes it never fail to amuse me how immature they can be...blaming others for their own ignorance,stupidity and selfishness..is juz plain stupid..a perfect example would be dat..if a friend of urs wana focus on their future n transfer to another class..would u call him or her selfish and a heartless person whom had forgotten their own friendship?beside that how childish can a person get some times, i wonder?pulling a prank on others juz for the sake for some cheap laughters and to impress some idiotic friends?is all this worthwhile?so many people are out there trying to impress each others..by being something their not...guess the rite word would be called hypocrisy..

oh well...i suppose thats 1 way for life to teach us dat sometimes no matter how time goes by.. something can never be changed..so i wouldn't be dumb enough to try to change it..juz get on with our own life...coz dats how life as it should be...

today is only my school's 2nd orientation day..haiz..but i already really dunno how to describe my feelings now.. kinda mixed feelings i supposed...

>first of all we are introduced to the new management of our beloved school namely the principal himself.. well...1st impresion is dat he looks more like a businessman rather than an educator..but after his rather 'elaborate' speech..i can only conclude dat he is an idealist with great and not to mention bold plans to further improve the school..mainly in discipline n academics..i would seriously take off my hat (if i had one) n salute him for his magnificent visions if they weren't dat impractical..but oh well.. new broom do sweep better any way...

>about the future teachers dat are to teach and educate us during this year..a rather pleasant lot if u ask me.. especially the supervisor of our form...

well i guess wat i am really trying to say is dat the road dat lies ahead of me and my fellow friends isn't an easy one to follow..form 4 is only a stepping stone to something much important..dat is college...however if all of us manage to survive the path with all those obstacles (which include higher demand of disipline, academically,self-effort and also the determination to continue walking this path dat we have chosen)..
i daresay dat our life will be sweet...after all..our life only begins at 18 rite?n beside who dare say dat form 4 wouldn't be a great year for everyone?