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Depending on  who and how you ask; chances are you will end up with a myriad of answers. Some may give you a careful but non-descript answer of "yes, I am." or even a hasty response of "yeah, why do you ask?". But beneath all these answers, therein lie a greater crux of emotions, considerations and perspectives mashed together to arrive at the answer to the question - are you happy?

For example, subject to a person's internal process, one may consider things that are only pertinent to onself when asked. You will most likely be happy if your most dreaded Prof is to suddenly announce the cancellation of a class or that your favourite bubble tea is being given out freely by your school as per its welfare drive. Such internal process may also affect you on a much deeper and foreign level when you find yourself brimming ear to ear after being complimented on a particular subject. At first you may be wondering to yourself why are you even so happy about it in the first place until  that lightbulb in your head goes flashing - this could be the one! the one you fancy.

Alternately, one can also formulate the answer to the above question by manner of comparison. If you are to compare yourself relatively to your peers, you may end up admiring all things awesome that they have had and are currently having. It could be their material possessions, their looks, their future, their attachement with their other halfs and whatnot. Looking from those perspectives you may potentially arrive at the conclusion that perhaps you are indeed happy - relatively in those aspects at least.

But the point remains. 'Tis such a relative and subjective question all together.

1. Managing and impacting my team (in a good way)
2. Exploring the less sexy sounding field of Organizational Behaviour & Human Resource
3. Getting my first taste of financial independence
4.  Being in a relationship

It's physicaly exhausting and mind numbing. Beyond all of that regulation and demands you probably feel like a week old pudding waiting to ooze out of it's hopeless mould. You know this ain't right but you just want to run away from everything if you could. You want to be left to your own device. But you also know it ain't possible at the same time.  

C'est la mort.

Not because you are a hot mess spiralling to self destruction or that you are in some deep trench of life's misery. Rather you are hit with this sudden realization that things can literally happen overnight without you coming to terms with it in the first place. You go to bed feeling contented with what you have had/currently undergoing - only to wake up realizing you are either craving for more or that you have that much riding on you.

Through this, you probably learn that you are no superman masquerading as some average looking joe with a dorky looking glass. You aren't saving anyone at the moment. In fact you feel like you are firefighting each day. Battling the issues and challenges thrown ferociously at you by some unknown villan bidding his time.

At the end of it all, you don't know where this is taking you. But it doesn't matter. Because ultimately, all that matters is to pull yourself together and say bring it on.

We are AIESECers, empowering AIESECers.

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